Trust in the Lord

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3: 5 - 6

Fifteen years ago my dad wanted to celebrate his 80^th birthday by taking the whole family to South Africa. We were all so excited to be going to stay in a very nice hotel near Cape Town in the middle of the South African summer and to have Christmas in the sun.

About two weeks before we left, God said to me, ‘Give me the holiday’ which I was holding onto very tightly. He wanted me to place it in his open hands. I immediately said a loud and emphatic, ‘No!’ God asked me, ‘Why not?’ I replied immediately, ‘because I don’t trust you. You will take it away from me.’

I was so shocked but I know God was not. I thought I was a woman of faith but obviously I was not. God knew what I felt but it needed to be revealed to my stubborn, unbelieving heart. For the next two days a battle ensued with God just waiting quietly and lovingly and me trying hard to place this wonderful holiday in his hands. Could I trust God to do what was best because underlying all this was the thought that if you gave something good to God he would take it away?

Today I still find it shocking that I thought such an awful thing about my God who only wants and gives good things to his children.  However he knows best and we have to trust him. Abraham had a far harder test of faith. God asked him to sacrifice his one and only child on which so many promises hung. He trusted God that even if he had to kill his son, God would raise him from the dead (Hebrews 11: 19) so that the promise would be fulfilled. Of course as Abraham raised the knife to kill Isaac, a ram was provided but he was prepared to do as God had asked. Amazing faith!

So what happened to the holiday? Two days later, after a lot of giving and taking on my part, I finally managed to give our wonderful holiday into God’s hands and say, ‘I trust you.’ Of course we had the most fabulous holiday but I didn’t know that. I had to trust God. That was the start of many tests of faith but God has been so wonderful. Even when doors have closed that I so wanted to open, it has always been for the best. God’s love never fails.